Consoling sm1 in pain seemed a tough task before,
It’s TOUGHER to be that sm1-showed me a person whom I adore.
Sympathizing words could incise deep inside,
I realized this when was barracked & everyone took aside.
Thoughts engulfed me completely, body turned stiff,
Eyes filled with tears, slowly rolling down the cliff.
Tears rolled down one after another & eyes remained close,
So lost in myself that I even forgot to take my breath dose.
Questions were chasing, conditions demanding, answers were out of reach,
Collecting myself, controlling tears by ordering them to immediately cease.
Eyes swollen, tears floating, nothing could I see,
Still scratching the past to look deeper but found no one just me.
Have read in books, heard in stories, situations even force a heart to break,
I was sleeping & waiting silently till now for one day-to rise, to awake.
Broken was my heart, broken was my soul,
Broken was my patience to handle it any more.
Tough time came when I realized that my life is not just mine,
I will have to live for others who would be affected seeing me in spines.
Welcomed the mid night with reddening in my eyes,
Lay on the bed to set a new fresh sight.
Tried to stop thinking, forced myself to relax,
Locking all the memories put into the stacks.
Eyes were closed, heart was dead, alive were the long breaths of mine,
Lost in the silence, searching for the support, hoping things would go fine.
Eyes were sleeping, thoughts were sleeping, night turned everything paralyzed,
Dreams took me into nightlong journey, makings things simplified.
Morning came I opened my eyes, for few seconds unaware of the last night,
Stood up straight with a smile, when a glance on ‘that’ forced me again to fight.
Fighting with my thoughts, fighting with the situation, fighting with the pain that I swallowed,
Thing that reminded me of all this was WET TEARS SPOTS all over my pillow.
Tried to escape, to suppress myself, covering myself behind the walls,
But eyes & tears revealed the reality & easily conveyed it all….
It’s TOUGHER to be that sm1-showed me a person whom I adore.
Sympathizing words could incise deep inside,
I realized this when was barracked & everyone took aside.
Thoughts engulfed me completely, body turned stiff,
Eyes filled with tears, slowly rolling down the cliff.
Tears rolled down one after another & eyes remained close,
So lost in myself that I even forgot to take my breath dose.
Questions were chasing, conditions demanding, answers were out of reach,
Collecting myself, controlling tears by ordering them to immediately cease.
Eyes swollen, tears floating, nothing could I see,
Still scratching the past to look deeper but found no one just me.
Have read in books, heard in stories, situations even force a heart to break,
I was sleeping & waiting silently till now for one day-to rise, to awake.
Broken was my heart, broken was my soul,
Broken was my patience to handle it any more.
Tough time came when I realized that my life is not just mine,
I will have to live for others who would be affected seeing me in spines.
Welcomed the mid night with reddening in my eyes,
Lay on the bed to set a new fresh sight.
Tried to stop thinking, forced myself to relax,
Locking all the memories put into the stacks.
Eyes were closed, heart was dead, alive were the long breaths of mine,
Lost in the silence, searching for the support, hoping things would go fine.
Eyes were sleeping, thoughts were sleeping, night turned everything paralyzed,
Dreams took me into nightlong journey, makings things simplified.
Morning came I opened my eyes, for few seconds unaware of the last night,
Stood up straight with a smile, when a glance on ‘that’ forced me again to fight.
Fighting with my thoughts, fighting with the situation, fighting with the pain that I swallowed,
Thing that reminded me of all this was WET TEARS SPOTS all over my pillow.
Tried to escape, to suppress myself, covering myself behind the walls,
But eyes & tears revealed the reality & easily conveyed it all….
